I am proof that being a good girl does not guarantee you being loved

2 September 12, 2018 By Dang

I’m not much of a writer but somehow I felt that if I just write my story and the post you shared about being a good girl doesn’t guarantee you being loved kind of spurred me . I might feel better and just maybe there would be light at the end of the tunnel.

I am the definition of a good African girl.  I believed in washing, cooking, cleaning as a part of a ladies job. So as part of my good girl nature, I was recommended to this particular guy . We met and clicked instantly . I felt like I was finally complete.

I was so in love and loved..or so I thought . I was everything for this guy..up to the extent that I flush the toilet when he FORGETS to without any complaint .

Trouble came knocking when I got knocked up . I had no choice but to keep the child and down the road, I had a missed abortion. Truth be told, I was a little bit relieved . Eventually, I had to go for an evacuation and all that…I went through all that alone with my money and my tears . I got to find out that he had been seriously  playing me all this while.

I WAS DEPRESSED. I thought of committing suicide more than 4 times but somehow, I couldn’t go through with it . I am a very lively person so I put on the facade of a happy person but deep down, I was dying inside. I resorted to drinking just so I could sleep through the night.  After 3 months, I tried to convince myself I was healing but the truth which I have now accepted is that   I am not healing . Anytime I see him, my heart still skips a beat and is then preoccupied with the thoughts of making him face a fate worse than death. At a point I got so self absorbed with day dreams filled with me torturing him.

Why I left my Lazy Cheating Husband And Started All Over Again

Eventually I stumbled on your page and a few others. Got to love some of your write ups and they helped me . I’ve not totally healed . In fact, I am far away from being healed but at least I’m in a journey towards it and I know it’s going to take time but I’ll finally get there. It’s quite funny that I have lots of friends and I am always there for them but not even 1 person could notice me gradually slipping away.

Written by Anonymous for Diaryofanaijagirl.ng

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2 comments on “I am proof that being a good girl does not guarantee you being loved

  1. Anonymous

    Hang in there, continue healing, please take care of yourself and pray for strength to forgive him. That rage you feel when you see him is self-destructive. You don’t need that.




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  2. Kells

    I’m so sorry this happened to you, Sending lots of love and warm hugs to you. I pray you find the one who will genuinely love and appreciate you, but first enjoy being single, it’s a lovely experience. Big hug?




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