I am a mum of 4 kids. 2 girls and 2 boys. I have plenty relatives living in my house at any particular time. Everyday we read about perverts defiling young girls and even fathers molesting their daughters and this has heightened my fears. I think I may lose it soon.
My first son is 18 and his immediate is a girl 15 and they are super close. My kid brother is in my house, he is in year one. My husband’s relative, a guy is also in my house. My second daughter is almost 13 but has a matured body. I have 2 other grown ladies in my house too.
I am literally like a hawk and an antenna in the house snooping and looking. Due to a robbery incident, we had to have CCTV put everywhere in the house. The monitor is in my room and most nights, I wake up at the least sound to watch movement.
I have never noticed anything out of place. I was monitoring my brother and my husband’s relative in the house but now my monitoring spirit has shifted to my son and daughter. I read a story online recently about a brother and sister that were having sex under their parents nose without them finding out. This has thrown me to a panic mood and I need help.
Yesterday I saw my son come out my girls room sweating profusely. You can’t imagine the thoughts that ran through my mind. I asked him what he was doing in the girls room and he innocently said he went to pick his towel. I asked why he was sweating and he said he has been working out and wanted to shower but didn’t see his towel. He passed and I tiptoed to the girls room and my daughter was sleeping unaware her brother even entered her room. I am crying as I am typing this because I need help. I am paranoid and these kids are good kids and innocent. I have had the sex education talk with them individually and the girls together at least 4 times.
What do I do?
Written by Lisa for Diaryofanaijagirl.