Today, I Almost Lost Faith In Myself.

18 November 20, 2017 By Zainab

Yesterday, I was at the screening of Ego Boyo’s Movie, “A Hotel Called Memory”. After the screening, there was an after party which was attended by a lot of people I was glad to meet. During the party, I saw this woman who has achieved great things and whom I admire greatly. Not only because of her achievements but because of her continuous advocacy for “girl power” and “women supporting women”.

When I saw that she was leaving, I also bid my friends good bye and quickly rushed out after her to introduce myself and let her know how much of an influence she was to me and how proud I was of everything she’s accomplished.

“Hello ma’am, it’s so nice to meet you. I am such a huge admirer of everything you’ve been able to accomplish and the standard you’ve set for women so far…” I said in excitement. She responded with an indulgent smile as she quickly looked at me head to toe. She seemed to be satisfied with my looks so asked me for my name. I told her. She asked for my surname, I mentioned that to her as well. She couldn’t make any connection of it so she said, “What do you do? You never mentioned”.

“Oh. I’m so sorry. I’m a blogger” In a playful whisper I said to her “I run a blog called Diaryofanaijagirl. Keep my secret”.




I was excited. Beaming from ear to ear.

“Oh. I can’t chat right now though” She walked away from me as she said this.

I heard the lady in her company say as they both walked away, “Ah you don’t know Diaryofanaijagirl?”

She responded in her native language, “Is that one a blog? Somebody that’s just fooling around”. They both giggled as they got into the elevator. I immediately turned around and pretended to walk back into the party.

I could not wrap my head around the fact that someone whom I have respected from afar, who is all about women supporting women and girl power would say such discouraging words. I was so discouraged that I saw no point in posting any of my articles this morning. I combed through my website and IG page, asking myself if what I was doing was really fooling around, looking for evidence that she was right.




I didn’t allow myself to stay in that spot for too long though, it’s not just who I am.

This was a difficult time in my story, and I almost lost faith in myself because someone whose opinion mattered had made a negative statement about me. I’ve heard some negative things said about my work but I never cared, why did I let this affect me so much?

I told myself I I’m in control of two things for sure: How I prepare for what might happen and how I respond to what just happened.

Is one statement from one person supposed to overturn all I’ve done and all I intend to do?




Even though I’m in the development process, my determination to leave this world and as much people in it way better than they were before they met me still stands. I have clarity now, that if that lady’s words can’t discourage me, then nothing can.

I am a co-creator of my life and I have chosen to march forward.

I will keep getting better and soon, no one, not even big madam will accuse me of fooling around.

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18 comments on “Today, I Almost Lost Faith In Myself.

  1. random thot

    Ignore her jare, that’s to show that not all that glitters is gold… Women supporting women my foot! Just keep facing forward, that sky is just the starting point.




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  2. Anonymous

    Am sorry about what happened, but don’t let her words discourage u,keep doing your thing,u not fooling around ,I love your blog coz your stories are really inspiring,maybe what she’s doing it’s just for eye service like they say but m sure u doing what u love So don’t let it get to u ….




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  3. Chidimma

    Well, good came outta what she did to you. I am here reading your posts. Been seeing you on IG and never got here. So, pay her no mind. Someone did worse to me about a month ago. But who cares? Those women are just plain insecure and threatened. And the fact that they have a pedestal doesn’t cover up their character deficiencies. So, ignore her. She will learn. Pay her no mind dearest. And keep making the world a better place. I have always said that getting in the face of so called achievers is overrated. It is God who promotes. If I stumble on you, I will appreciate you. But I am not going out of my way to tell you how awesome you are. I am busy building the nation. Time for that will come. And that time may include them seeking you out. God bless you NaijaGirl. God bless your Diary




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  4. Chidimma

    Overrated celebrities. Wherever we are in life is a privilege. Yet, many forget so easily. And even this worked for your good. More traffic to your blog.




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  5. Zoee360

    You said it all, you are a co-creator in your life… Nobody has that power to take a front row unless you give them. As for the lady, Just understand that she has only succeeded in pushing you further, people cannot give out what they don’t have. Keep pushing at the drill, you see God rewards diligent and just like the designer who made Ebuka’s agbada broke the internet in one day, your time will come. One bitter comment from a bitter person should not make you think otherwise, because you just gained a future applause.
    FYI…. You are doing an amazing job, great impact on me.




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  6. Vanessa

    Hi, I’m Brazilian living in USA. I don’t know how I start to follow you on Instagram but here we are! I think you are more then talented, you are the Lord’s chosen one to make a big impact in the whole world. And I’m not telling you to be comparing yourself with someone that is a postar, you are a history changer! I believe this, and never ever doubt yourself! God bless you!




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  7. Ghostmode

    Hi, just to let you know i just discovered your blog because a comment made on BellaNaija about this issue. I’m not happy you got snubbed but really glad i discovered your blog. You are doing a GREAT job, you have got good content and from the comments on the posts i have read so far i see your blog attracts sane people (trust me this is a big PLUS, it’s a mad world out there) !!! Let no small minded person ever make you lose faith or doubt yourself. Keep soaring




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  8. Ngozichukwuka

    I love your stories,your write ups Infact because of what she said I will follow the diary on all social handles.Don’t let some insecure human being talk you down,some people put up fronts just to impress people.You just be yourself,be original and you will attract people.God bless you.




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  9. Oluwatamilore

    I’ll be stating the obvious if I told you the woman’s opinion is irrelevant. However, the greatest mistake you will make is to stop writing here and being real. Only if you knew that some of us look up to you, your posts, your opinion. Only if you knew that in down moments I run back here to read and re-read posts I have read before to either become happy or inspired. Only if you knew that when there is fresh issue in the media, I patiently wait for your comment and does it match the truth and reality? Of course it does! You are amazing! Please keep going! Lots of love from I and my friends who follow and read up your posts. Don’t EVER stop this! God bless you?




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  10. Elizabeth

    Always use the stones thrown at you to build. Someone told my mum I will get pregnant at 19 and be a tout, I am 27, doing pretty well for myself. Saw her sometime ago and she said congratulations. Absorb the pain and use it to build. Love




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  11. Anonymous

    I love your blog and you are influencing other ladies in a great way too, like myself 🙂 Your posts resonate with me in a huge way, please don’t let one random person destroy my go to therapy blog ohh, this blog is not for you ohh so please continue and keep up the good work! People are counting on you! 😀




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  12. Ijeoma

    I love your blog and you are influencing other ladies in a great way too, like myself 🙂 Your posts resonate with me in a huge way, please don’t let one random person destroy my go to therapy blog ohh, this blog is not for you ohh so please continue and keep up the good work! People are counting on you! 😀




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  13. Jaysoledivas

    I can relate to this and it’s so sad. I’ve always questioned this women supporting women thing. Once you’re not successful or trying to be successful in their own field or what they consider the right way then you’re a lay about. I’m a blogger myself out of passion amongst other things and the things I’ve been told even from friends and family are heart wrenching. But i stay focused on my goals.

    I can’t go a day without your posts. It’s become so addictive, if I don’t see you on my tl I’m searching for you… smh! Abeg keep up with what you do! I even want to write as a guest here.




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